until march.

the month of march has been quite interesting. it started off beautifully, went downhill, and now i'm sure i'm experiencing the most vast learning process of my life. the month's not quite over. maybe it can end well.

let me just come out and say it. i met someone. someone. i've met lots of someones in my life. until march. suddenly things exist that didn't before. i never knew i was a girl. lol i know, but i never knew i could be one of "those girls."  you know- the ones who wait by the phone and are consumed with thoughts of the boy ? omg. i'm virtually barfing right now. i also found out i can't always get my way. until march. weirddd. i can always make my own destiny by making things happen for myself, not relying on anyone else, but who knew you can't do that when what i want involves someone else? go figure.

my god has been wicked awesome. we had a freakin battle in my bedroom the other morning as i tried to make a decision based on my own selfish will. if i knew what a Naruto battle looked like, i bet me and my savior would have owned it.

now, i know my god very very well, but i never realized how clear his voice is. until march. "WAIT!" he nearly screamed at me yesterday, "be patient you little punk!" patience is the toughest obstacle i'll ever overcome in my life. my justification is that i've been waiting my whole life, so what's there to wait for now? voice of reason pops in. god says "wait." i say "anything for you." i know, easier said than done, but i have literally never, ever been so willing because i know he's got a plan for me and i'm so excited to see.

my eyes have never been so open. until march.

two more days. until april.